amusing myself

5555. Amusing Myself (from main blogger)

sounds like a phone number in a tv drama 5555

that many pieces of writing on this site

tinnitus is trying to kill me

the cat woke me and I came downstairs and fed Totoro

and had breakfast as a metal dustbin lid is banging on my head

I remember as a a child when there used to be heavy metal dustbins

so

Amusing myself

Tinnitus no doctor can cure

and mine is the cast into the fires of hell variety

Arthritis no doctor can cure and I litterally cannot do anything when it strikes

slap on pain killed so my shirt reeks of it

Ckd I've managed to flat line it at the low 20s now, 23 gfr

by changing diet and eating as much fruit as a gorilla I avoid dialysis

I don't want to be plugged in three times a week anywhere

quality of life

if I couldn't come to my desk and bore you

then its even worse than my current life

Hernia in the middle of my chest. do doctor can fix

as big as my fist now and it hurts and I cannot carry things

I can grunt and move stuff, but then I can be in pain the rest of the day

Heart I take meds to slow it down so I have an athletes pulse

which stops the force in the veins from damaging my kidneys more

SO

if you meet me and I'm far from serious

THEN

you know why

so much pain and noise in my rubic cube life

I have windows of clarity, may last all day

or I'm hiding on the sofa or under the bed clothes

SO

don't judge me from your ivory tower of ignorance

and just enjoy the humour

IF

you like the surreal

If you don't then

I make NO APOLOGIES 

so now you

Know but do you CARE?