The White Door
By
michael casey
The White Door, or the dirty white door to
be exact. I had a dream last night and I
saw a door, a dirty white door.
There were two nails driven into it in the top left hand corner of it. That’s
all I remembered, we do have 2 white doors in our house but neither are like
that.
So what was I dreaming about? Years ago I
had a dream dictionary, I would have eagerly read that to find out. So instead
I’ll have to use the Internet, google will have an answer no doubt.
I’ve said for years that I’d only get a
real publisher IF somebody opened the door for me. A negative friend always
says you have to make your own opportunities. I take the view that its not
ability but knowing somebody, the old saying, its not what you know but who you
know.
I knocked on loads of doors via emails, but still after 20 years no
publisher for my novel. A friend said its not just a door but maybe a
window I’d may have to sneak my talent
through a window before I finally got my
chance, before my boat comes in.
My smallest daughter said she had a dream
last night too, she dreamt we moved house to the big white house we walk
past daily on the school run, and that
we had a cat and a dog. The dog will be called Subway. She was all excited as
she told me. Children just love animals, but I’ve said no animals till we get a
bigger house. Somebody somewhere has to find me and like me, and then publish
me before our dreams can come true. Or my 32 year old lottery ticket could
finally come up trumps, thought I doubt it.
You never know what’s around a corner my
old boss once told me a long time ago, she was right, I met the wife in a most
unbelievable way. Its all in Padre Pio and Me and my Literary Criticism essays.
Doors can be opened and closed, closed in your face. For 3 years I stood by a
door when I worked at a 4star deluxe hotel, the whole world passed through as I
was a 30 second living commercial for the hotel. Best 3 years of my life
in a way.
Doors in the mind are the best doors to
open, because they free you to experience more, I’m not talking about taking
pills or whatever, just in case any Old Hippies are out there and reading this.
Just open your heart and you will open a door to experience more, to remove
barriers that leave you in a box, full of your own prejudices. Think of it as
food, we always have this and we always have that. Because thats the way we
have always done things. Then we meet somebody different and our food world
changes, our doors are open. Imagine me meeting a Shanghai girl 10 years ago ,
I told her fish and chips was haute cuisine. Now you need a degree in oriental
languages to know what’s what in our fridge. The kids love going to Subway as
its a change from daily Chinese food. That’s why if ever we move house the dog
will be called Subway.
I’ll leave it at that now, though I can say
that Fear opened one door for me. I was so afraid of my Primary school teacher
when I was 8 that I started to read books, and it changed my life. Getting an
old Bush radio from one of our lodgers also opened another door for me,
expanding your mind is a great adventure. If you are lucky it leads to a
corridor full of doors and opportunities. I suppose writing these blogs as well
as the essays and plays and the comic novel is a door too, you the reader are
seeing into my mind, I just hope you like the view.
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